Then I moved here to Hayward with my Nina and Nino as they took me in because I've been going through some things and my dad wasn't around for years the last time I saw him I was six, so they took me and took care of me. After that I started to forget about my mother and my Nina reminded me of her, telling me that she was fine when in reality she wasn't. He would also say that he is fine and that he will get better. Then came October 11, 2016 it was six in the morning I heard my Nina and Nino talking Then I can hear my Nina come to my room so I closed my eyes she acted like I was still sleeping she came into my room she started shaking me awake I got up because I was tired of ignoring her but I turned my head and looked at her as she sat on my bed next to me said John then took a deep breath and started rubbing my back and slowly she said your grandma came by hours ago I knew she wasn't lying by the sound of her voice. I turned my head, put my face on the pillow and immediately started crying. My nina knew I was crying but no one had ever seen me cry except mom because I was too proud. When we got in the car I was silent, my nina was calling me but she acted like no one was calling me because I was still trying to believe that mommy was gone for good this time. A week before she came to visit me here for the last time, it hurt me a lot because when I saw her she didn't even know who I was, all she wanted was to look at us like we did