I heard Dan ask me where I was but I couldn't move. “Jill, Layken is bathed in her own tears!” He said as he entered our bedroom. “What are you doing sitting on the floor?” He said. "I'll start making dinner." I said avoiding his gaze. To keep myself calm while cooking, I had head surgeries. Being a surgeon, things made sense to me, I knew how to fix a leaky heart vole, I knew how to fix an aortic cardiac aneurysm, and I knew how to keep a heart alive. Cardiac surgery was my specialty. I knew every vein of the heart, I knew everything about the heart and how it works. Funny, it's funny to think that I'm heartbroken and I can't even fix it. At dinner, the room felt tense and awkward. It was so quiet, we had never been so quiet before. "I'm going to call Lilly and ask her to come to the gym with me tonight, I need you to watch Layken." Before I even gave him a chance to respond, I left the table. While I was driving I called Lilly to meet me, we've been best friends since college and we're basically like sisters. I had to talk to someone, I was going crazy. Lilly was always there for me, she was my bridesmaid, my best friend and the one person I could always count on